It’s difficult to know when to stop. Or when to go.
It’s hard to tell how other people feel which is why sometimes I will talk so much my mouth gets tired and can only hope that’s what the person wanted to hear.
I try too hard to make friends. I try to make them smile and laugh and like me.
I don’t know when to stop. I just talk or make jokes and eventually it gets lost on them and my personality shines through.
My sad horrible personality.
I don’t know what to do when someone asks me a personal question.
I always answer in the hopes it will make us closer but immediatley regret letting that person in.
The thing is I need to talk to someone.
I need to tell someone how my date went or what my plans are for the week or what’s wrong.
I need someone to talk too who won’t go and share my secrets.
I need someone who loves me for me and doesn’t care that I get angry sometimes and talk too much and have an obnoxious laugh.
I need someone who likes that I try so hard, and maybe tries hard too,
Or maybe doesn’t try at all, which I do sometimes.
Sometimes its easier to completely shut someone out instead of letting them in or getting to know them.
I would rather just be content as myself with myself sometimes than have to deal with getting to know someone new and putting up a few barriers knowing it will be so easy to break them down.
It’s complicated because I know that you need to try sometimes, but I just can’t always do it.
I know that I need to shut down at sometimes, but I never know when to do it until after the moment has passed.